I sit in reflection of my life....
Wondering why it has all come to this very point....
A crossroad that will either end or begin....
I’ve often wondered why I’m the way that I am....
Wondering why I do the things I do....
Feel the ways I find myself feeling....
My mind is tiptoeing around questions....
Pushing everything aside....
Leaving only two choices....
Either I do or I don’t....
Maybe I should let the darkness come and swallow me whole....
The coldness of forever surrounding me....
The vastness of nothing taking hold of me....
I’m sitting here on the side of the bed....
Taking it all in....
I’ll end up leaving everything behind
So do I let myself go down with the sinking ship?
Because there is no one there but me to pull myself out of the whirlpool....
The darkness sounds so intriguing....
Small rays of darkness on a sunny day....
To take away the hurt and pain....
I know what I will leave behind....
But for now....
It really doesn’t matter....
I really don't have much to say. All I have is reflection to keep me company.
~DT~