I know not what I'm doing....
Or where I'm going for that matter....
All I know is I have a bag slung over my sholder....
And my heart in my pocket....
The air is chrisp....
And the snow underfoot is fresh....
My midnight walk will end up leading me somewhere....
Be it the end of the road or a tavern door....
The stars shine bright above me....
Seen through the baren branches of the old Oak trees....
I can see my breath flaoting before me....
But I'm not cold inside....
I have my strength and a heavey coat to keep me warm....
Where am I going?
Only the fates know....
Where will I end up?
Only the Goddess knows that truth....
Dammit! I seriously need to find a new image host. The one I use seems to not like me linking my photos.. Those damn bstards :Þ.
Anyway, I figured I start my new diary off with a bang. Just going to sit down and seriously write in here tonight (Insomnia's my pimp and I'm it's bitch cause I can't sleep for the life of me at the moment.). I guess things are going ok. I'm still doing the job seacrhy thing. Not that I'm getting far, but I did go and turn in an application at the Yellow Cab company yesterday (The 8th of Jan) and they told me that I'd find out by this afternoon if they may hire me. I know I still have to take a test for the possition (Anwsering the phone and takeing down people's names who call for a cab), but I'm pretty sure if I can work for Papa John's for a year (And don't forget MCI, now their's something I'd like to forget, but anyway I degress) I can handle takeing people's names and addresses down. They pay $7.25 an hour, so that'll help til I find a carrer to actually start working in. I figure this way I can pay my bills, eat, and still look for something better. I'll even move if I have to once that carrer comes along. Maybe it's about time I picked up my roots and planted them somewhere else *shrugs*.
For anyone who cares to know this, I'm still a Virgin as of this point in 2003. Not like it's bothering me, I'm just putting that out into the open because I feel like it :Þ. This is MY journal anyway, I can write what I like.
Oh yes.. Another topic I want to get off my chest, being loanly sucks ass ><. I'm sick of it! I'm ready to find somebody who'll accpet me for me and treat me as I should be treated. I just want somebody who'll let me be me and be there for me. And yes, it goes both ways. Not that I'm saying that means not being committed to one person. Hell, it's far from that point. What I mean by letting me be me is letting me do the things I love to do (Watch anime, draw, write, read, go to Cons ^_^, etc..). All the fun ass shit I like to do and noone telling me I can;t do them. cause I won;t stand for someone telling me I can't draw when I want or can't go to a Con because they don't feel like going. Well sorry to say this, but I'll go by myself if I have to. It's not like I want to force somebody to go if they don't want to. It's their choice. And if they dont want to go do what I want to, that's cool. Time apart is always good and heathly for any couple ^_^. But alas... That thinking is nothing more than whisps of smoke right now cause I have noone to tell them to that would really care about them. Eh.. One of these days right? I'll find somebody ment for me. Somebody who will be my best friend and the same time much more than that ^_~.
I'm going to be finally updating my website. That damn thing has been collecting dust for QUITE a long time. I think the last time I updated that sucker was back in March of last year. I just never got around to actually working on it again. One point being I had just gotten back from Germany and didn;t have my computer. Second point is that I just never felt like working on it. I know, I'm a bad webmaster, but oh well. It's time for a new facelift, and it'll get it here soon. Just gotta sit down and do the HTML and what not for it. Should have that up soon enough.
Nite All! I'm getting tired, and Kit is telling me he wants to go to sleep (I just recently started letting him sleep in my room. Now that he's almost 6 months old (On the 18th), he has earned some of my trust like the big boy that he is ^_^)
~DT~